Friday, April 19, 2019

waiting for words

waiting for words

will break your silence
will veil your peace
and suggest separation..

but if the words
emerge from what 
You are
wholeness will shine
curbing the sharpness
easing the pain..

no rush
welcome your waiting...!

Thursday, April 18, 2019

A Mask

in progress

Q. What's the difference between a rapist, a therapist, a terrorist and an evangelist?
A. To the separate self, there are huge differences but the Truth is there are none.
Each is apparently acting out of a cluster of thoughts and feelings that the finite mind believes to be True.
Each is apparently identifying with an illusory self-image. a mask to hide behind so as not to appear as their True Nature.
Awareness has no self-image, no mask, no identity to be limited by or hide behind.
Awareness is Peace, Love, and Happiness.
To identify with a mask no matter how benign or acceptable is to forget Our True Indivisible Nature and suffer the pain of separation as a result.
Awareness Lacks for nothing and is the Source of everything.
The finite mind can reinvent itself till the cows come home It can identify itself as a one type, a five type or a ten type, level of awakening. but it is only when it gives up the ghost and realizes that all of these identities are a load of baloney that it can finally dissolve to discover and Be the Self
~~Pat Nolan

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

going to the Source

going to the Source

all the appearances
all of our thoughts
we find the clarity
and Recognition of

as the Source 
 we experience real 
freedom and peace..
then proceeding to 
the world we know
the colors of creation..

careful now to
not veil again 
that earlier 
most profound


Charlie P....

Good paper and videos!  Some will be surprised to hear Sam Harris, a noted atheist, 
speaking of the primacy of Consciousness.  Also, the use of the dream as a metaphor
in the second video, seems most valuable.  

more later!

From my friend, Charlie P...

Friends - This is an interesting posit where our dreams are compared to our "real life".  The question here is that when you kick a rock is that really, really real?? (or a hyperdream?) Worth a read.

Charlie's email included the following:

Metaphysical Speculations, Bernardo Kastrup

Sam Harris Explains Why God Exists

Life is a Dream

Monday, April 15, 2019


The appearances
in our hours
beg our attention
resist departing..

one appearance released
replaces another
with the gap between
growing short..
and shorter..

Yet in the gaps
lurk the only happiness
we can know..


Opposites and Polarities

Opposites and Polarities

Thinking of one thing
our minds reach out
 for an opposite..
Our life question seems:
how else to think..?

Religions push beliefs
while science searches
among polarities for
a theory of everything..
We were educated to
find oppositions as 
core truth..

But polarity's paradigms
have bumped a wall
and thought limps along..
The important News 
ancient and brand new:
our minds misdirect
lead us astray..

We apparently await
a primal scream
as the last
comes to know where
it cannot go...

Rupert Spira:  There is No Opposite to Consciousness

Saturday, April 13, 2019

Speaking and Writing

in progress

What I have expressed, not just in my post above, but in all my posts here, is not ‘what Rupert and others have said’. It’s my own understanding to which Rupert and others (mainly Rupert) led me, or rather showed me the way. When I first introduced the Direct Path teaching to my group, and asked Rupert’s advice about how to do that, he said ‘always speak or write only from your direct experience and understanding’. I’ve always taken that instruction very seriously. There’s a world of difference between understanding intellectually what someone says, and feeling it, knowing it and experiencing it for oneself.
~~Jenny Beal  (Rupert Spira Study Group on Facebook)...



 Experiencing the black hole
as M-87 reminds us..of
tales of unimagined gravity
with no-escape warning..
Some say the hole is a portal
to another universe beyond..

Speculations of a new universe
assume distances..out and away..
Of thought ongoing as ever before..
Pause and consider..the demise of 
information..all thought's content..!

Thought comes to the end of
the trail..and now must stop or
leap into a destroying fire..
Perhaps to discover that
you and I are much more 
than our thoughts..which
have veiled and colored a
vaster self..the portal stands as
entry to new Understanding.. 

The eternal Identity..of 
each of

Friday, April 12, 2019



the first photo of a black hole
comes from a cluster of thoughts 
and perceptions..creating the
earth whole as a giant eye..

it is consciousness shaping itself
so to become an observer as a
self..with severe limitations
seemingly enhanced by
the impressive engineered eye..

focusing we find M-87
fading into our infinite nature
we waken from our dream of 

Thursday, April 11, 2019

Stones Shouting

Forum...Palm Sunday

Stones Shouting

there is a Sameness
in the many colorful
expressions of Grace..
Grace shapes itself as:
the man on the donkey
the sounds of shouting
the voices of caution
and the quiet stones..
Grace as your Wholeness

39 Some Pharisees in the crowd said to Jesus, “Teacher, make your disciples stop shouting!
40 But Jesus answered, “If they keep quiet, these stones will start shouting.”

Luke 19: 28-40 (CEV)

Only in Luke 19:39 do we hear the Pharisees chide Jesus for his disciples' unruly demonstration. They express the sentiments of Jerusalem toward Jesus: "Order your disciples to stop."

Only in Luke do we hear Jesus' eloquent reply, "If these were silent, the stones would shout out!" Is this a reference to Habakkuk 2:11, where the crying stones refer to the judgment of Israel? Does Jesus mean the stones would cry out against the disciples who sin by keeping silent? Does he mean the stones would cry out against the people who will reject and silence him? Does he mean that if the disciples keep silent, the stones will be forced to proclaim the mighty acts of God instead of them? Does he mean that it is no more possible for disciples to keep silent than it is for stones to speak? I can't fault the scene for lacking dramatic tension. I just hate the way it is resolved. (Patheos...Alyce Mckenzie)


Where is Grace in this parable?
What is the shouting about?
Significance of "stones?"

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Memories of PILLAR

Memories of PILLAR

Pillar through 20 years
has been about journeys..
To so many places 
where big things happened..
With impressive impersonations 
of  special persons
who lived in those times
and in those spaces.. 

Imaginative journeys 
in classrooms gave way to 
journeys of rubber-on-road.. 
In Angela's less
to Trinidad 
and to so many other 
exotic destinations..! 

another journey has 
roots in Pillar's beginnings..
Bonnie named the new journey:
"Stretch..With Mind-Boggling Cinema"..
This mindful voyage flipped
your ship of discovery
outside to In..!

I sailed  with Bonnie 
during many early we tried
to gain shipmates attracted 
to  Port Rio Grande..
 To find Themselves resting
in Ocean and Waves..

(one aside here:
Dave Rich referred to 
our hardy sailors as
Charlie's Groupies! 
Most incredible!
Dave's sea legs weak!
What more can I say?)  

And sad day
Bonnie completed
her final Pillar journey..
and handed to me the 
keys and the paddles..hoping
that Stretch might sail on ..

Stretch still is Afloat 
under a new banner which
let's say Today..commemorates 
those early days." JOURNEYS" it is..
so please..sign up today..and continue
with us on Ocean and waves..
Join us..and discover 
 this old Pillar Journey ..

~~Charlie Coon

 May 1st, 2019 1 pm to 3 pm
Help us celebrate 20 years of learning, 
volunteering, and socializing in the Pikes Peak region!
RSVP by April 24
1:00 Gathering
1:15 Welcome
1:30 PILLAR’s Early Years by Bonnie Riley,
PILLAR’s founder
2:00 Memories of PILLAR: Stories
2:30 A Toast to PILLAR
PILLAR Institute for Lifelong Learning
Located on the north side of Chapel Hills Mall 
Enter between Dillard’s and Burlington 



Francis Lucille
I would define the ego as a concept originating from the "I am" experience, pure being without attributes, the absolute certitude we have that we exist. When I conceptualize this experience, I name it "I" or "I am". 
There is nothing wrong with the pure concept "I am". The ego comes in the moment I say "I am this or that". The "this or that" superimposes a limitation onto something that, up until now, was limitless.
The Gift of Life

The self
is not some villain
that needs to be vanquished,
but the gift of life itself,
the mystery of existence
knowing itself
as the taste of you.

John Astin

Tuesday, April 9, 2019

Independent Existence

in progress

The Daily Quote from Rupert Spira, 10th April 2019

I, Awareness, lend my reality to all seeming things, giving them their apparently independent existence, just as a screen lends its reality to an image, giving the image its own apparently independent existence.




is set off
when a separate self
hears a threatening note..
this a note of gratitude
for new Understanding..
the note exceeds
the small self's reach
and sings 
of insignificance
of illusion..
midst the dissolving a
new life unfolds...

Sunday, April 7, 2019

The Inward Journey

The Inward Journey
(Red to Blue) 

Being Aware of Being Aware

God (Religious name)

---I am...


separate-self (ego)
inside subject/outside world

 independent reality 
fear of death
search for Happiness

Saturday, April 6, 2019

Coming Home

Jean Klein
Excerpt from: I Am
The root of all desires is the one desire: to come home, to be at peace. There may be a moment in life when our compensatory activities, the accumulation of money, learning and objects, leaves us feeling deeply apathetic.
This can motivate us towards the search for our real nature beyond appearances. We may find ourselves asking, 'Why am I here? What is life? Who am I?' Sooner or later any intelligent person asks these questions.
What you are looking for is what you already are, not what you will become. What you already are is the answer and the source of the question. In this lies its power of transformation. It is a present actual fact.
Looking to become something is completely conceptual, merely an idea. The seeker will discover that he is what he seeks and that what he seeks is the source of the inquiry.

Thursday, April 4, 2019



We start here
with the knowing
of this truth..
Which we know by
experience over belief..
This is our knowing
from which all knowledge
Nothing is known
without this

Wednesday, April 3, 2019


There are many journeys...  
There are journeys in which we observe the 
world from conventional windows of body and mind.  
There is another journey which involves recognition
that I Am much more than my old belief that my limited 
body and mind is who I am.  Also.. to discover that my 
belief in limitation is the root of my suffering and 
longing.  The new journey, the Direct Path, belongs to 
the experience of Non-Duality, in which are found to have
Two Legs: 
 the Inward, and the Outward.  The Inward Leg results 
in the discovery of our Unlimited nature, and the Outward 
 is a "return" to the world..beginning a life-long 
realignment in our lives based on a recognized 
True Identity…

The Robin Reminder

The Robin Reminder

the mind 
is a forgetting..

now in springtime
a robin gains attention
bringing the mind to focus
and perhaps to compare
this harbinger of warmth
with the chill times passing..

this is Nature's movie
and we willing actors:
expecting the robin 
as temporary and 
soon to depart..

yet the robin reminds
as it has before
that the robin and we
are made of
Nature's infinity
never departing...

Monday, April 1, 2019

Paradigms Shifting

Paradigms Shifting

 rubber meets
the road..
spinning vibrations..
material science
seems as commanding
answering our need
to gather together
closing the distance..

 fossil fumes
heat and pollute
our living space..
new vibrations
quantum science
 gathering together
instant messaging
through no distance..

Paradigms Shifting...

Thursday, March 28, 2019

the prodigal

the prodigal

the father 
veils himself and
issues forth as
a prodigal seeking
peace and love
in a foreign place..

she suffers..not
finding after searching
with exuberance
among colorful attractions
of places and things..

in exhaustion she 
cries for help..and
grace is recognized
with joy as she
I and my father
are one...

“The true adventurer goes forth aimless and uncalculating to meet and greet unknown fate. A fine example was the Prodigal Son — when he started back home.” 

― O. Henry, The Green Door

  The Departure of the Prodigal Son

To go forth now
from all the entanglement
that is ours and yet not ours,
that, like the water in an old well,
reflects us in fragments, distorts what we are.

From all that clings 
like burrs and brambles--
to go forth
and see for once, close up, afresh,
what we had ceased to see--
so familiar it had become.
To glimpse how vast and how impersonal
is the suffering that filled your childhood.

Yes, to go forth, 
hand pulling away from hand.
Go forth to what? To uncertainty,
to a country with no connections to us
and indifferent to the dramas of our life.

What drives you to go forth? 
Impatience, instinct, a dark need, 
the incapacity to understand.

To bow to all this.
To let go--
even if you have to die alone.

Is this the start of a new life?

~~Rainer Maria Rilke

Understood spiritually, Lent is a time for preparation for Easter, 
which is not only a celebration of Jesus' resurrection, but a
reminder that we are summoned to leave behind that which
entombs us.  Attitudes like resentment, hatred, complaining, 
pessimism, worry, anger, pettiness, and gloom can be graves
in which we linger and languish for a lifetime.  Without 
realizing how it came about, we can find ourselves with at 
least one foot in graves that render us lifeless and in need
of resurrection...
~~Tom Stella, CPR For The Soul

Mind over Matter. (Bernardo Kastrup)

Scientific American:  Physics Pointing to Mind..Bernardo Kastrup

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

Closing the Gap

Closing the Gap

This is the question 
all will soon
need to answer:
Have I closed the Gap..?
The Gap is the separation
remaining in our knowing of
our Oneness with Everything..

Writings are rife with many
depictions of attempts to
 balance spirit and matter
and other expressions of the 
seeming two dimensions of life..

Language conspires
 to hold our Gap open as 
 subject and object
hold their persuasion..
Leaving us with a 
measure of unease
as we nod our heads...

Congratulations to Tom Stella...!!!

Congratulations to Tom Stella...!!!
Without explicitly calling his approach as non-dual, all of his books are heart and soul non-dual.  This book, and his others, I highly recommended for their attention to clarity, brevity, and depth..

WON "HIGHLY RECOMMENDED" from Soul & Spirit's 2019 Spiritual Book Awards for Best Spiritual Author.
“The fact that you are not dead is not sufficient proof that you are alive!”
So begins Tom Stella’s latest exploration into the life, death, and rebirth of the soul. In CPR for the Soul: Reviving a Sense of the Sacred, Stella shares the deep, eternal wisdom that knows the lines separating the sacred and the secular, time and eternity, humanity and divinity, are false. Or, at the very least, blurred. God, by whatever name, is found in the midst of everyday life, work, and relationships. All people, all creation, and all of life is holy ground.
Divided into 13 sections, this collection of over 100 short reflections speaks to the countless people – young and old, male and female, churchgoers and church avoiders – for whom life’s demands and stress have caused them to lose touch with their soul, the “still point,” to use the words of Dag Hammarskjold, “surrounded by silence.”
This book offers a revival for the soul, a reminder that “we are one with something vast” – a “something” that “is not a thing or a person, but a spiritual source and force at the heart of life.”

Monday, March 25, 2019

What's Happening

What's Happening

This we often pose
as a question..
Our minds
inquiring minds
want to make sense
of the many
perceptions we are
handling right now..

But the problem is
what's happening is
soon not happening
and the question repeats..

The question repeats
until exhaustion 
suggests no end to
dying and renewing..

A better question
might then arrive..
Is there stability
at any time and place..
A stability in which
and before
so much happening

The answer shouts
or remains hidden:

West Wing...

Rupert Spira:  How to Experience Yourself as Awareness. (I Am..)

Rupert Spira:  God in Relation to the Non Dual Understanding (I Am..)

Rupert Spira:  God's Face in All Experience (rubbing fingers)

Rupert Spira:  There is no World Outside Consciousness

Rupert Spira:  Consciousness is our True Body

Rupert Spira:  Is There a Purpose to Suffering? (narrowing, contracting..)

Rupert Spira on Meditation (text)

"All you have feared at any time in your life is no more than a thought that you believed into existence. Things that you imagined to be so are no more than imaginings. If you accept that mind exists, you will try to control it and manage it. This is mind trying to control mind. If you self-enquire as to whether mind exists at all, you will find that it does not. Mind itself is simply a thought. This discovery brings freedom."
~Jac O'Keeffe

Saturday, March 23, 2019



What is it
that we can say is
This has been 
science's quest over
the centuries:
to locate the illusive

Atoms in ancient times
seemed irreducible 
followed eventually by
You know these names..
Names of matter 
tinier and tinier..

And the end 
is not in sight for
searching in matter
for that which is

It appears 
we await a new day.. 
Perhaps soon 
for recognition
that our focus
need be reversed:
inside not outside
is a non-location
infinite and