Thursday, March 28, 2019

the prodigal

the prodigal

the father 
veils himself and
issues forth as
a prodigal seeking
peace and love
in a foreign place..

she suffers..not
finding after searching
with exuberance
among colorful attractions
of places and things..

in exhaustion she 
cries for help..and
grace is recognized
with joy as she
I and my father
are one...

“The true adventurer goes forth aimless and uncalculating to meet and greet unknown fate. A fine example was the Prodigal Son — when he started back home.” 

― O. Henry, The Green Door

  The Departure of the Prodigal Son

To go forth now
from all the entanglement
that is ours and yet not ours,
that, like the water in an old well,
reflects us in fragments, distorts what we are.

From all that clings 
like burrs and brambles--
to go forth
and see for once, close up, afresh,
what we had ceased to see--
so familiar it had become.
To glimpse how vast and how impersonal
is the suffering that filled your childhood.

Yes, to go forth, 
hand pulling away from hand.
Go forth to what? To uncertainty,
to a country with no connections to us
and indifferent to the dramas of our life.

What drives you to go forth? 
Impatience, instinct, a dark need, 
the incapacity to understand.

To bow to all this.
To let go--
even if you have to die alone.

Is this the start of a new life?

~~Rainer Maria Rilke

Understood spiritually, Lent is a time for preparation for Easter, 
which is not only a celebration of Jesus' resurrection, but a
reminder that we are summoned to leave behind that which
entombs us.  Attitudes like resentment, hatred, complaining, 
pessimism, worry, anger, pettiness, and gloom can be graves
in which we linger and languish for a lifetime.  Without 
realizing how it came about, we can find ourselves with at 
least one foot in graves that render us lifeless and in need
of resurrection...
~~Tom Stella, CPR For The Soul

Mind over Matter. (Bernardo Kastrup)

Scientific American:  Physics Pointing to Mind..Bernardo Kastrup

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

Closing the Gap

Closing the Gap

This is the question 
all will soon
need to answer:
Have I closed the Gap..?
The Gap is the separation
remaining in our knowing of
our Oneness with Everything..

Writings are rife with many
depictions of attempts to
 balance spirit and matter
and other expressions of the 
seeming two dimensions of life..

Language conspires
 to hold our Gap open as 
 subject and object
hold their persuasion..
Leaving us with a 
measure of unease
as we nod our heads...

Congratulations to Tom Stella...!!!

Congratulations to Tom Stella...!!!
Without explicitly calling his approach as non-dual, all of his books are heart and soul non-dual.  This book, and his others, I highly recommended for their attention to clarity, brevity, and depth..

WON "HIGHLY RECOMMENDED" from Soul & Spirit's 2019 Spiritual Book Awards for Best Spiritual Author.
“The fact that you are not dead is not sufficient proof that you are alive!”
So begins Tom Stella’s latest exploration into the life, death, and rebirth of the soul. In CPR for the Soul: Reviving a Sense of the Sacred, Stella shares the deep, eternal wisdom that knows the lines separating the sacred and the secular, time and eternity, humanity and divinity, are false. Or, at the very least, blurred. God, by whatever name, is found in the midst of everyday life, work, and relationships. All people, all creation, and all of life is holy ground.
Divided into 13 sections, this collection of over 100 short reflections speaks to the countless people – young and old, male and female, churchgoers and church avoiders – for whom life’s demands and stress have caused them to lose touch with their soul, the “still point,” to use the words of Dag Hammarskjold, “surrounded by silence.”
This book offers a revival for the soul, a reminder that “we are one with something vast” – a “something” that “is not a thing or a person, but a spiritual source and force at the heart of life.”

Monday, March 25, 2019

What's Happening

What's Happening

This we often pose
as a question..
Our minds
inquiring minds
want to make sense
of the many
perceptions we are
handling right now..

But the problem is
what's happening is
soon not happening
and the question repeats..

The question repeats
until exhaustion 
suggests no end to
dying and renewing..

A better question
might then arrive..
Is there stability
at any time and place..
A stability in which
and before
so much happening

The answer shouts
or remains hidden:

West Wing...

Rupert Spira:  How to Experience Yourself as Awareness. (I Am..)

Rupert Spira:  God in Relation to the Non Dual Understanding (I Am..)

Rupert Spira:  God's Face in All Experience (rubbing fingers)

Rupert Spira:  There is no World Outside Consciousness

Rupert Spira:  Consciousness is our True Body

Rupert Spira:  Is There a Purpose to Suffering? (narrowing, contracting..)

Rupert Spira on Meditation (text)

"All you have feared at any time in your life is no more than a thought that you believed into existence. Things that you imagined to be so are no more than imaginings. If you accept that mind exists, you will try to control it and manage it. This is mind trying to control mind. If you self-enquire as to whether mind exists at all, you will find that it does not. Mind itself is simply a thought. This discovery brings freedom."
~Jac O'Keeffe

Saturday, March 23, 2019



What is it
that we can say is
This has been 
science's quest over
the centuries:
to locate the illusive

Atoms in ancient times
seemed irreducible 
followed eventually by
You know these names..
Names of matter 
tinier and tinier..

And the end 
is not in sight for
searching in matter
for that which is

It appears 
we await a new day.. 
Perhaps soon 
for recognition
that our focus
need be reversed:
inside not outside
is a non-location
infinite and


Joan Tollefson

Everything is a choiceless movement of an ungraspable, inconceivable and indivisible presence. There is space Here-Now for everything to be exactly as it is, and it is never the same way for more than an instant. Human beings with our complex brains have a habit of overlooking our actual present experiencing in favor of a conceptual story that we have learned—we overlook the territory itself, which is alive, and try to live in an (inaccurate and misleading) map.
By giving open attention to our actual direct experiencing, by looking and listening rather than always try to think our way to clarity, by feeling into this spacious awaring presence that we are, we can discover that we are like moving waves in the Ocean—each of us is a momentary, ever-changing, fluid movement of the whole Ocean. We are not actually separate from the other waves, and we are never anything but the Ocean. We cannot go off in a direction other than the one in which the Ocean is moving, and when we “die,” we subside back into the Ocean that we never actually left.
The Ocean includes big waves and small ones, stormy seas and placid ones—but it is one, whole, undivided happening without borders or seams. Only when we identify exclusively as the wave do we worry that we are “too small” or “too big” or worry about what will happen to “me” when “I” die, as if a waving movement has ever been any solid, persisting “thing” to begin with, or as if it has ever been apart from the Ocean.
The true “I” to which we all refer prior to name and form is the Ocean. And we don’t have to stop being a wave to realize that we are the Ocean. The Ocean loves waving. To paraphrase Rumi, “You are not a wave in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a wave.” So wave on in whatever way you are being expressed, which you cannot help doing. And do not fear returning (at the moment of death) to the place you have never left.

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

Whatever It takes

Whatever it takes

Sometimes called a
 hidden diamond or pearl..
Meaning a recognition 
seemingly hidden..of
the identity of each of us 
which bears the 
fruit of real happiness..

The recognition happens
in any time or place
but the odds are improved
with a gardener's nurturing
or a teacher's mention of
the joy of the return
..whatever it takes..

Facing now toward
the morning sun...

See:  Luke 13: 1-9

Monday, March 18, 2019

The Search

The Search

We all know
what it is to search..
For what do we search..?
Apparently for many things
yet these things disguise that
which is the real object
for which we are searching:
which end our
desire to search...!

Sunday, March 17, 2019

The "I Am" Portal

The "I Am" Portal

a portal of experience
as a patch of blue
breaking the clouds..
a clearing to reveal
the infinite Am
in I Am...

Wednesday, March 13, 2019

Fox and Hen

Fox and Hen

thoughts these are
of fox and hen..
predator and protector..
these are images of
our inner separation
the suffering we endure
as we identify with
 these old beliefs..

we suffer as we search
for a restoration which
we know is near..
the fox and hen
wait to be relieved
as the agents of
our long delusion..
which is promised
with the recognition
of a new identity
bathed in grace...

See..Luke 13:  31-35

Monday, March 11, 2019


What is a hologram?

to begin
our hologram is
 a construct of
 whole in the part..
a creative thought
 striving to understand
the nature of ourselves

the brain
 is not the source
of our hologram..
but a view of 
filtered through our
 creative thought..

thought..most creative
cannot know
without dissolving in that..
so our dear hologram
as a favored construct
must an illusion be
standing alone..

Friday, March 8, 2019

Clouds of Pairings

Clouds of Pairings

non duality 
the sages say
is highest expression
of Reality..
it is negation
of separation
of multiplicity..

our intuition of
that words limit
and separate..
all words..!
words recall words
of opposition:
you know more..

non duality 
the sages say
is highest expression
of Reality..
it is a negation
of separation
of multiplicity..

still..Truth eludes..

finding Silence...!

Thursday, March 7, 2019

What is a tree?

What is a tree?

The mind 
as thought
is the naming
after  arrival
of an image
of our tree..

walking back
we realize there 
is no tree..but a
 series of brushstrokes
on the canvas of
our perceiving mind..

quietly and quickly
in an eye's blink
the mind's thought
names a tree
and 'lo.. we speak
of a tree..

Wednesday, March 6, 2019

Lady Luck

Lady Luck

what seems 
as good luck or bad
dresses a teacher..
our smaller mind
when confounded by
the unexplained 
drills down to locate
what must be there:
a cause and effect..
often 'tho..alas.. luck..

then might dawn
the recognition:
what is happening
is all at once
right Now..
what is happening
halts the search in  
 no time and place
and Lady Luck
smiles and
takes a bow...

Sunday, March 3, 2019

The dream goes on

The dream goes on

but the dream now
is an enlightened dream..
one of knowing 
the dreamer and dream
as one..
that is the waking
that seems underway
and which promises
the peace and happiness
for which all
are longing...

The dream goes on, but it is as though you are awake inside the dream. Nothing is so serious. Then, the marks of anxiety and worry, they leave your face. The tensions that are created through the mind and its fears and projections, they're also being discharged, leaving. So when others see you, there's a Vibration, there's an Energy present in you that is the most powerful and yet at the same time, the most beautiful, because we remind each other of our True Nature...
Just try and keep your attention in the Beingness; that natural sense. From there you can see that actions, reactions, interractions, they are playing totally spontaneously. You're just Here. Looking at life, looking out from a kind of Vastness and yet, you're not shopping for experience. Your Beingness IS your Experience.


Rupert Spirqa...Understanding

Saturday, March 2, 2019

Waiting for Elizabeth (Beth) Ann

Waiting for Elizabeth Anne
(Beth Anne)

Times and places
seem so long ago  
scattered and distant..yet
 on grandmother's quilt
names are revealed
of those women whose
 vitality brought forth
an awaited birth..

Imagination is
silenced by 
contemplation of the
innumerable stories
the sorrows and joys
which are veiled
by the quilt's
sharp brevity.. 

They are here today
to attend this gathering
in celebration of 
the blessed life
of a granddaughter and
daughter and mother
named Beth Anne..

(We gather and honor:
Marie, Adele, Maria Francoise
Oliva, Elizabeth, Philomene,
Betty, Nancy, Sarah Elizabeth,
May, Nancy, Mary Ann,
Margaret, Diane, Elizabeth,
Martha, Matilda, Chariety,
Sarah Frances, Emma Jane, Pearl,
Betty, Eleanor, Sarah Elizabeth,
Eleanor, Letitia Anne, Barbara,
Wilhelmine, Ella, Mary,
Elizabeth, Lucy, Deborah, May,
and Lucy Maria...)

Friday, March 1, 2019



history (and science)
have an obstacle..
the observer fades
as  happenings
go their separate ways..
the world as objects
stand as mystery
to be solved by
undaunted effort..

as separation rules
the number of paths
of investigation grow
large and larger..
and the observer
fades still more..

that is, until a
discovery of futility
revives awareness
of the observer
who is huddled
in a hidden place..

subject and object

subject and object

we learned long ago
assumed in school
a simple grammar lesson:
subject and object
maps all of life's
comings and goings..

some have rebelled: 
restricts my freedom..!
but consent has been
the ticket for entry
in cultural games..

to some..experience
seems flouted: 
subject and object 
equals dogma..belief..
experience proclaims:
there is only subject..!

followed by retort:
senses record objects
in the world we find..
displayed out there
seen from in here..

so for now
it appears 
we can choose
either world:
experience..or belief...

Your preference...?